Getting a place of my own

Hello world,

  I have started the process of getting my own place, it will be my first place ever.I need more space if I'm gonna commit to music and videos, I have looked into a couple places and yet its gonna be tricky, everyone's been telling me how hard it gets sometimes for rented your first apartment.But I feel like I have to do to help get over my phobes and grind my way over the tracks of bad memories that haunt me. I think I can do it, besides noone said I can't, I'm getting better at being someone i thought people wanted me to be.So far I've been saving up and doing research for everything I have to expect taking the steps I'm about to embark on.

  That's all for now...I'll update every time something new happens.

Little Birdie

Little more the ....

Hello World,

 Yet here I am again,Only work because I'd been saving up for my tattoos, only here you will get a more personal look at who i am as a person in the real world then who i act like on the Internet,There's no difference sometimes,Its just that this blog feels like a safe haven for me to be in..."Like a room with no doors or windows and lighting,I feel great on this site.
 In The recent months I've been addicted to ink,Tattoos are Turing out to be a big release for me in terms of the new me doing whatever the fuck i want...,And so I've decided to say and do whatever for my audience,I really mean it if i fine out something about someone i don't like I'm gotta tell everybody on the Internet,And if you hate me and someone close to you tells me shit about anything you don't want people to know,"I'm gotta spill the beans on the Internet"
 All I have been doing in getting inked and planning my comeback to the Internet.Its going to get crazy and most will look at me with disgust and anger,but i have nothing to lose anymore after Valarie John left me,I will make friends,but enemies will be even better.I had it all and lost it,I will gain it back.

P.S
Just forget the 613 on youtube,I have...Im just CrazyInTheMix and noting more

Late World.

Fixing and Falling apart...

Hello World,

   Its has been awhile,I've lost so much and gained very little...Over the last year my life has changed in many different ways.There's no telling what and why things have to happen to anybody,But i felt nothing would changed and end so horribly,My main focus in the last 4 months has been "Be happy and try to smile".There are many many encounters I've had to make me think about it getting better,But always evens out to be nothing but a set up to trick me into believing maybe shit could get better...
   In These passing moments as in right now...All i could do live everyday like its my last,I finally get the saying,I've stop holding myself back on the shit i want outta life.We can choose the way our life is going to play out,I have grabbed a hold on mine it feels like a release of years feeling like shit and and shame and regret,I now am a change person and I'm going to continue to please myself first,"That's kinda nasty",But my mind wasn't in the gutter when i wrote that,

  Everything I'd loved to do on the internet will all be coming back soon...I promised too many times before in the past about coming back on the and getting my shit on lock,So take this as my last promise to you. Lets troll