Getting a place of my own

Hello world,

  I have started the process of getting my own place, it will be my first place ever.I need more space if I'm gonna commit to music and videos, I have looked into a couple places and yet its gonna be tricky, everyone's been telling me how hard it gets sometimes for rented your first apartment.But I feel like I have to do to help get over my phobes and grind my way over the tracks of bad memories that haunt me. I think I can do it, besides noone said I can't, I'm getting better at being someone i thought people wanted me to be.So far I've been saving up and doing research for everything I have to expect taking the steps I'm about to embark on.

  That's all for now...I'll update every time something new happens.

Little Birdie

Little more the ....

Hello World,

 Yet here I am again,Only work because I'd been saving up for my tattoos, only here you will get a more personal look at who i am as a person in the real world then who i act like on the Internet,There's no difference sometimes,Its just that this blog feels like a safe haven for me to be in..."Like a room with no doors or windows and lighting,I feel great on this site.
 In The recent months I've been addicted to ink,Tattoos are Turing out to be a big release for me in terms of the new me doing whatever the fuck i want...,And so I've decided to say and do whatever for my audience,I really mean it if i fine out something about someone i don't like I'm gotta tell everybody on the Internet,And if you hate me and someone close to you tells me shit about anything you don't want people to know,"I'm gotta spill the beans on the Internet"
 All I have been doing in getting inked and planning my comeback to the Internet.Its going to get crazy and most will look at me with disgust and anger,but i have nothing to lose anymore after Valarie John left me,I will make friends,but enemies will be even better.I had it all and lost it,I will gain it back.

P.S
Just forget the 613 on youtube,I have...Im just CrazyInTheMix and noting more

Late World.

Fixing and Falling apart...

Hello World,

   Its has been awhile,I've lost so much and gained very little...Over the last year my life has changed in many different ways.There's no telling what and why things have to happen to anybody,But i felt nothing would changed and end so horribly,My main focus in the last 4 months has been "Be happy and try to smile".There are many many encounters I've had to make me think about it getting better,But always evens out to be nothing but a set up to trick me into believing maybe shit could get better...
   In These passing moments as in right now...All i could do live everyday like its my last,I finally get the saying,I've stop holding myself back on the shit i want outta life.We can choose the way our life is going to play out,I have grabbed a hold on mine it feels like a release of years feeling like shit and and shame and regret,I now am a change person and I'm going to continue to please myself first,"That's kinda nasty",But my mind wasn't in the gutter when i wrote that,

  Everything I'd loved to do on the internet will all be coming back soon...I promised too many times before in the past about coming back on the and getting my shit on lock,So take this as my last promise to you. Lets troll

The New Me In A Way...

Hello People,

  Once again I've been busy...too much planning and brainstorming is going on and not alot of work is getting done.I have alot of chapters to get to,and alot of the shit with everything else is at a hold.I've made attempts to get another glimpse of the mermaid in "Saints Row: The Third",But that's not important. I have spoken with others on the issue of "Needing A Community"...I wanna play Twisted Metal and Others,but seems the scene is dying off little by little.I play all the time and wait and wait and wait...until nothing.All I'm saying is i will be online in a attempt to resurrected the amount of online traffic in my favorite games.
  I will let you know what games i will be playing for a month or so striaght to try to make the players who aint online anymore and the new players i saw yesterday to get all of that great twisted metal online glory out of our system.

I can inform you know about this plan.

• Twisted Metal 4pm EST - 12am EST
• Modnation Racers (TBA)
• And others (TBA)

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2nd investigation Of The Steelport Mermaid

Hello People,

 Yet another day in Steelport...In The dramatic search for answers in this mermaid case.For the most part the search left me again with questions.This search in particular i was stunned and angry,to a point i call the search in 9 hours again.

-First 4 Hours-

(1.)Before i started i had search more info from a fellow explorer.I've marked his spots and began to head out to the open water.The day starts like any investigation,Its silent and claim.I began near the harbor in valenwood i think,rather then start out in the middle of no where in the water...And as i stop i look out and look out,Then suddenly,In The corner of my eye i kid you not I saw a fin.

(1.a)I was excited and then distressed.Its weird because i didn't hear the music some described before it was witnessed.So i jump in to get a better vision of what occurred,For about i swim around and pause and have a stare...Two hour mark passes and i still trying to look for something to give me a explanation.

(1.b)After giving in into these first 4 hour search.I took a brake and headed for some subs...before returning to the game,I'd look more blogs for more hints and howtos to set me in for the right path towards locating it directly.Yet I'm fascinated with the claims that it is "here or there",These hours are behind me now and i finished my sub and head back out.

-Next 4 Hours-

(2.)The next part of post reflects on the area's I've seen others explore.And i can tell you from my prospective that these aren't hot spots,I know I've should have written them down to stop you from looking in the wrong area,"I'll get that info to you soon"

(2.a)A district under "valenwood" seems to the one of the most popular spots to see the mermaid,But in my view there's nothing there,I think it was marked there for a reason to throw you in the wrong direction.The more i stayed i realized the farther out i went...I'm guess my head wants to trick me but i heard the music again,But I was already leaving towards another area

(2.b)It wasn't long before i move to the island near the Decker's,To a spot where some are saying is rare to see her.The only thing that bothers me about it,in all of that looking and no photos or video from those who have claimed to seen it.I know i fall into that group but i don't wanna show a 10 min video of me just looking.As i look I'm finding that this might be one of those area's that are made to throw all of us who look off track.







-Last Hour-

(3.)I start a process to where i just drive up and down the coastline,It never fails but I've yet to have a true encounter with this creature.I roam around and around until I'm right back in the place that had me go crazy and decide to look for it.There's no doubt that its in the game,We as the gamers,Its up to us to figure out how to AND point out its location.

 I will say this,something is having me to believe that its just the water and its made to do random shapes as you pass through,maybe someone started this as a joke and look at us now,searching for a ghost basically,But then the creators didn't denied that there isn't a beast.All I know is i wanna fiure it out..."For me".